New Look. New Mojo.

Last Sunday, April 28th - I celebrated My 28th Year on this planet!

You see, I have this thing with numbers.  It's funny - it's very seemingly random, but they are all sentimental numbers to Me.  More on that some other time! 

And so, on the 27th of April I had my childhood Best Friend, who also happens to be a talented stylist & Kindred Spirit, sheered 15 inches off My locks!  15 inches donated to Children With Hair Loss.  A Truly Heart Warming Non-Profit I found to donate My hair to.  Why this particular organization You may ask?  Why not Locks of Love, Wigs For Kids or the other Amazing organizations out there?  One simple reason:  Children With Hair Loss allowed me to donate processed or dyed hair.  I do color My hair several times a year and truly relish in the experience of the actual process and the waves of Divine Feminine Energy that seems to Radiate off of One.  Perhaps I should Honor My Divine Feminine Self and make the effort to be more diligent about it a little more Self-Love. 

It took Jen more than a few snips to get through the pony tail.  (She Knows Me So well) and asked, "Should We be quiet?"  I laughed, peering through My hand covering My face, giggling and bursting out:  Yes!  But after a few moments My giggles got the best of Me and I started to talk.  Finally the final snip was gone and she handed me the pony tail of 15 inches of Life and Stories and Memories and Time off My Locks.  Immediately I felt Free.  Lighter.  More Me somehow.  I felt absolutely how I had intended to feel in the days and weeks leading up to this Shift.  

Months before I had put it off time and time again.  My face wasn't thin enough.  I was going to wait for it to grow a little bit longer.  Remember My weird thing with numbers?  Yeah, I had to wait until it was the 11th of November.  The 12th of December.  The 21st of December.  New Year.  My Golden Birthday.  Voila!  

The original plan was to dread My hair.  I have Always, Always wanted to have dreadlocks.  It's just this Fairy, Boho, Pacific Northwest version of Myself I want to live out and perhaps someday I will, perhaps that is what I will grow My hair out for this time around?  Hmmm...But then, on August 30th, 2010 My Uncle passed away and left Us here on Earth after battling cancer.  It was devastating and I still work though the grief and emotions and Memories constantly.  He was My first real Heartbreak from death.  My prior experience consisted of My Great-Grandparents, who had All Lived Full Lives.  My Uncle was 48 and it was all  too soon.  And so - after He passed, it became:  Okay, I am going to grow out My hair even longer and donate it on the Anniversary of His Passing.  But when the time came, it seemed too morbid.  His Birthday was just around the corner at the end of the year - yes, I would cut it then in Celebration of His Life.  When the date rolled around this time, I just couldn't let it go because somehow it meant that the act of cutting My hair would be tied directly to Him and the thought of it invoked such raw emotions still, I just couldn't do it.  No, this would have to be for Me - My Golden Year.

I have looked forward to My Golden Birthday, My 28th Year since I can remember.  It is a Sacred number and date to Me.  It has Always represented Me transcending into a Truer Time in My Life.

And so, I set the date for the eve of My 28th Birthday, and snip, snip, snip!  I actually went through with it.  Somehow I was ready this time around.  Ready to let go and step over into the Light of My True Self.  I'm not saying that getting a bob gave Me this permission, I am saying that it simply allowed Me to Physically mark in time letting go with Love and moving forward with a Glow.  It has allowed this for Me and I question what took Me so very long to do it.  I carry a stage of "buyer's remorse" for many things - but this, I have never once thought, Oh Goddess!  What did I do?  I miss My hair!  I am Smitten with My New Look, cowlick on the right side of My head and all!

My Favorite part of all of this is that not only was I able to shed a few layers and let go, but someone else will benefit from me letting go, and in that I am sending Light & Love to My Uncle and His Memory.  The Circle of it all brings Me such a deep Peace and Joy and I give deep Gratitude for My Life and for My 28th year here on Earth.